Feel like Blogging .

It's only been ‘some’  weeks , but it seems like being ... forever . I don't know , just don't understand . Sometimes what i wanna do , just don't dare to do , but once i done it , something bad will happen and it failed too . It's so complicated and i don't understand why?

I had lots of different dreams lately , but all the dreams , had the same similar parts . Felt so scary when i woke up all the time . But still , i'll thank God for letting me wake up safely . I don't know , i had some creepy thoughts , and those thoughts all goes to negative .

Lately , been listening musics , and i really do love lying and cover my ears with musics louder and louder until i can't hear anyone talking right beside me . But the sad part is , while listening , inside my eyes always  had tears , it won't drop out and it stays inside my eyes. Why? Why can't i just cry it out as i want to be more better? more comfortable?

Well.. I guess i write till here .
I don't know she will read this or not ? Just that i wish one thing can happen to me right now , just one thing before she go back , leaving Taiwan , wishing that i can celebrate the New Year of 2013 together . Its okay if she not right beside with me , i can stay far away from her , but ... just that i wanna be the one seeing her in my 1st of the 2013 year . This maybe the bestest 2013 gift i ever have ...